Wednesday, October 26, 2011

The Good And The Bad

I think I'll just do this by family member. It's been so long since I've blogged because things around here are CRAZY.

Good: He likes his job. The nurses are wonderful, as is the facility.  He is not working as many hours and that is nice.

Bad: He does not love his job. He is not seeing many patients per day and he feels like he doesn't have "the pull" that he did at his last job.  He feels restricted and the docs are commenting on his documentation.  Don't get me wrong. I totally agree. Greg's penmanship, grammar, etc. could use some freshing up.  I just want him to be happy.  I think it will just take some time.

Good: I love how happy Ben is in this neighborhood and I really do like my house.  I've been trying to decorate little by little, but it has been a challenge with Ms. Grumpy Pants. I went to my second MOPS meeting and have been invited to another at a different church.  I love getting out and holding those sweet babies.

Bad: This actually shouldn't be a bad, but I have my first personal trainer appt. tomorrow. She wants me to do Body Pump then 30 minutes of cardio and maybe more.  I can barely even get the clips on the weights for the class so I am more than a little terrified.  Two hours of exercise = nightmare.  I so need to get in shape though, so here we go...
This might be too much information, but I have had more and more irregular bleeding so I must go back to the gyn on Monday :(

Where do I start?
Good: Ben is so smart (I can say that since he's mine :) ). He rec'd all A's on his report card today. He has been finishing his homework in record time so he can go outside to play.  He woke at 5 am this morning, made his bed, dressed, took the dogs out and fed them.  He also does every chore I ask of him in the evening (laundry, dishwasher, cooking, you name it). Last night, he planted a tree at scouts and had dirt all over him and under his nails.  I just swallowed and breathed and let him be. We also went to Family Fun Night at his school and he made a cobra out of his gourd.  He is so creative and the principal was impressed = bonus points.

Bad: One word: MANIPULATIVE.  He can talk his way out of any situation (mini Greg). He puts toys and candy on all of my grocery lists. Last night, he hid a bag of Three Musketeers under his bed. We found them this morning while the dogs were trying to get into them. Sigh... Luckily, I know his lying face and catch him every time. I want him to FEAR me. Is that bad?

Sadie: Oh my...
Good: We have started private therapy for her and it is going really well.  I also took a signing class so I will be able to teach her some new signs.  She has ST on Tuesdays and OT/PT on Wednesdays. I take her to school after therapy.

Bad: She has been having some behavioral issues lately.  This week, she has been refusing to sit for a short amount of time.  She has been raring back in anger.  Meal times are very difficult.  We have decided not to take her to restaurants for a while until this passes. Grocery shopping is a nightmare. Tonight, I am waiting on Greg to get home before I shop. Today, we had her Fall Festival at school. Her paraprofessional called in, but I tried to stay and help Sadie with the centers. This did not work. If I am present, she will not comply.  I waited til we were in the car to cry.  It's just so frustrating sometimes. I know it will get better.

We have definitely had a difficult transition.  We have experienced a lot of stress lately. I contacted a marriage counselor last week and have been to one session. Greg will see her tomorrow and then we will go together.  I love my husband more than anything and refuse to let this transition tear us apart.  I trust in God and know that he brought us here for a reason. He gave us Ben and Sadie for a reason. He gave us these dogs for a reason (did I tell you I tried to give them away last week?). He gives us challenges to make us stronger. We have been to 4 churches thus far and have not really found what we need, but I know He will lead us. 

Until next time...


Shelley said...

Praying for you during your transitions. I heard this at the Women of Faith conference last weekend and it helps me lately... "God is ENOUGH for meand I am ENOUGH for GOD!" Love you, Friend!

our lady of perpetual stuff and nonsense said...

sweet sarah--sometimes, things are just plain hard. you are in my thoughts and prayers. you're doing such good work, and being so honest about all of it. God is fighting for you, you are amazing. love is coming to save you! love is already here.